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I'm tired to believe in you or any other relation anymore,I mean when you're having a relation with someone you should trust each other am I right? But since I'm right but why it won't happen to me? I believe in her but she ain't that dream princess that just will think of only one prince..she absolutely thought that I'm a fucking dumb ass prince I believe in her!! But when she not with me i mean when she back to her campus she go chat at those messenger with other guys and talk things like couple even caling each other dear or darling im like what the fuck!! sometime she come over she forget to clean those messages and I read it with out she notice it but fine I just let it go. There is once I catch her on the time she chat with guys I got angry and scold her and argued well she say it will never happen and she won't find no guy no more but she ain't..I tired of believing anymore Girl I just be my self no more R no more R!!

I'm not a millionaire sometime you says you wanna go for dinner and movie but I'm not in a good timing for all this all thou I know you want to go so badly but every time going out is too cost full for me I can support that yet. I'm still on a saving time but you couldn't understand I mean even petrol cost me hundreds buck plus already. Every month I gotta pay my car loan over eight hundred ING insurance cost me hundred something spending on petrol to work already cost almost four to five hundred including my phone bill is almost thousand plus I'm not some rich ass guy.. But I know this is all my fault I can't make a success yet in my life could you understand just a little but more of me? I'm tired always to be the one staying strong. :(

You demand me not smoke that much eventually you mean not to smoke,you said not to smoke that much I did it..

I used to smoke almost a pack one day,from the start you demand me not to smoke so much,I did you know one day like 2-4 cigarette only is that not good enough I've done my best!

I smoke because it could make me feel relax better than taking drugs. I smoke because I miss my dad I wish I could have a dad that always be with us and cared about me and mom so we won't be so hard on our life! :(

But is not gonna happen..he is not the Oone in those movie THE GREATEST DAD EVER I'm not in a perfect family.
Back then when he was at home the smell of the smoke and in the air-cond room is just like now when I smoke I get back the feel that like I had a GREATEST DAD you know?! :(

For you are my girlfriend I have complete my mission to not to smoke that much I've been a good boy since then I LOVE YOU YOU KNOW ANOT?

But the whole day I only smoked once and at the time we ate at the restaurant I take a cigarette and smoke and you give me that look that (脸色) even you finish ate you throw the plate and give me the look

Tell me what should I do..

Wish me happy birthday today after 12a.m I'm growing older le..
Guessing who's gonna celebrate with me other than my girl,I think she gonna give me a big surprise I'm so happy and can't wait to know what it is..


That picture there was a half image of the suprise it was handmade from her!

<3 I can't wait to know what it is..
It so gotta be very cute and surprising

But I think my girl are more cuter than anyone or anything in the universe x)
Am I too sweet or I'm just bluffing my self haha..
Well happy birthday Jeremy @@

Yesterday mommy me sis and win went to Ulu yam riverside to play water and picnic :D it was a nice day to picnic hehe





There no me inside coz I'm the camera man haha.

Soon other update will be posted

I'm homee bloggie   x)
Just Changes new job for 4months.
It was kinda easy job but very exhausted wasting alot of energy sitting..Working time was till midnight plus Friday and Saturday work until 1a.m midnight.One week six day arggh! why wouldn't it be One week Five and A half day  x) That was kinda Oos!Out Of Schedule!  I can't go out have fun d!You know la Late Ghost ma  x)
 This was the place I work http://www.facebook.com/pages/Country-Homes-Badminton-Hall/158470630879554  Come on and visit me la,I belanja you drink 100plus